I have been very busy.. update/rant on Anatomy

Finals have been eating up my time recently.
I've been wanting to post something up, because I want to dedicate more of my time writing literature, poems, lyrics, ideas, blog posts...anything.
The constant focus on bringing up grades to ensure a prosperous summer has prevented me from taking my time to write a blog post.
So I guess I will make one big update right now that sums up what has been going on lately, and I will continue with updates every other day or so.

I originally started this blog to somewhat document what I've been doing or feeling at the time of each post, and I have only posted one blog so far, so I haven't been very consistent with achieving that hahah. My first post doesn't exactly reflect that intention though. I wrote it because I have been feeling a big change come about and I wanted to express it by referring to the ideas that I have had about the moon when I was younger, when I lived in Davis. I might plan on elaborating on that story later, but I'll just say right now that the made-up story I had regarding the moon used to be pretty straightforward and childish, but over time it has shone more meaning than intended. I enjoy thinking about the concept of the moon's relation to the sun. Just throwing that out there.

So, to the update..
School has been pretty heavy, and it will be over in less than two weeks. It would be easier if I didn't have Physiology/Anatomy. The teacher is a fine example of incompetence. EVERY worksheet has at least one major spelling or grammatical error. He RARELY teaches the class on important concepts to memorize/understand directly, instead, he just hands out said worksheets and labs and expects the students to somehow know exactly what to do and how to do it. If a legitimate question is asked, it is either dismissed, ignored(for he is partially deaf), or responded to with "DIDN'T WE GO OVER THIS ALREADY?!", or "If you read the instructions, it explains it!", and sometimes he even adds on "...Dumbass!". Thanks, Mr. C---(last name withheld), you really helped me understand what the hell we're doing! Some the instructions on the recycled worksheets(he uses the same ones each year without the revisions that are desperately needed) are impossible, or have the wrong reference pages written(again..THANKS!). He uses powerpoints in replacement of lectures, and he expects us to copy down specific sections of his notes(endless amounts of sections, might I add), which is tolerable I guess, but wait...he makes us retype ALL of them to be graded at the end of the grading period for our work binder. Speaking of the work binder, he has us include every worksheet we've ever done for that grading period to be entered into that binder, as if we keep track of every "busy work" scrap of paper that he feeds to us(multiple worksheets daily, just to add confusion and frustration). Included with said worksheets and notes are the labs(some labs are relevant to the subject though, which suprises me), coloring sheets(one of the biggest wastes of time that I have ever seen), and random shit like 100 keys, learning objectives, blah blah blah. OH, and students get marked off if they don't include pictures in their notes and random shit, as if pictures found off of the internet show how much a student understands about Anatomy. The due dates are sometimes impossible, the computers provide almost never work and they run slowly(sometimes the class would be half over by the time the laptop has loaded completely), and the tests are hard as fuck because the teacher hasn't properly prepared the class and some of the questions weren't even covered in the whole chapter(Fuck yeah! I love suprise questions! They make my day more enjoyable.). All in all, Anatomy sucks, don't ever take it at Pioneer High School, unless you buy my work binder off of me, and in that case you'll have an easy school year. It doesn't count as a lab science (which is recommended for colleges), but instead it is an elective. I could have taken Beginner's Piano, which is an art, and it would have looked better on my college transcript AND it would have been an easy A.

Blegh. I fucking hate Anatomy.
It's fucking up my summer; my parents have this requirement of no C's or lower on my grades, as in B's and A's ONLY. Anatomy has made it virtually impossible to meet that requirement because I spend ALL of my homework time on that class and still perform at a high C, low B level. Spending all of my time on that class has led to lowered grades in other tough, but legitimate courses, such as Honors PreCalculus and Advanced Placement English Language/Composition. Fortunately I have been able to make up those grades, but according to Mr. C---, it would be impossible for me to bring up my semester grade to a B, even though this trimester I have an A. Sure, I did receive two C's last two trimesters, but if all of the percentages were added up and the mean percentage was the final grade, I would reach a B, but no, Mr. C--- does his grades differently than all of the competent and successful teachers. Fucking great.

I'm going to complete this update another day, just writing about this one class is pissing me the fuck off.

P.S. I just realized how different this post is from my first one...ah shit. Well I will bitch and moan more in the future..stay tuned! Woo!


This isn't even the beginning of my workload. This sucks. Forever.

Here's a more accurate depiction of Anatomy, teacher included, courtesy of Johnny Vu



His larger, original post may be seen here: http://c1.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images02/106/l_319cbe740f2f4d6eb7e723a188f230b0.jpg

Restlessness

It has had the best of me tonight.
I have been unable to achieve this state for quite some time. There has been nights where succumbing to a state of sleep was not an option. The inability to focus on what was before me during the day would lead to my completion of tasks to be held only during the night. Although in those times, the execution of fulfilling my assignments was crucial to my nighttime agenda, exhaustion has overcome me on almost every occasion. Tonight was a rare occurrence, I was able to stay attentive, but unfortunately, there were no significant deadlines to meet; my consciousness lacked its usual importance. Instead of stress flowing through me, the only thing that arose was a stream of endless thoughts. I have been needing to let them out lately.
At this point in my life, I feel like I am able to appreciate everything that has come my way. The stresses and struggles of family life, friendships, and my career path have made me stronger, and the same could be said about the support that I have received. Growth of myself and my friends becomes apparent each passing day; I wish to not let that end. I will do anything to keep the ties that I have obtained, which have been between those special to me, and those who have taught me the importance of the time that we have been given. This year is coming to an end, and though I will miss it dearly, new memories will be forged over time, and this growth that has come about will continue.



I saw the moon tonight, his light held supremacy over the sky, as if he was the only being in existence. He gazed upon the world blankly, for there was no one to watch him shine. Tonight I was his witness, whether he realized it or not. The dreamer was not alone.